Erica's Pensieve

As I sit and drink my green tea

My thoughts turn to moments you share with me:

I’m re-living how pleasant it feels to be

In an entirely peaceful room with thee

Where I’m just a she, and you’re just a he

And we strongly commit to this therapy

With barely a touch of my hand on your knee

Turning two separate people into a we

Which then leads to healing from intimacy

Because you let go in the presence of me.

These are the instances I feel are key

In compassionate wonder my heart feels free!

I’ve been thinking about my grandpa lately and how much I really miss him. This song brings back my treasured memories of him and his strength and love he gave to everyone around him.

Faith Hill – There You’ll Be

When I think back
On these times
And the dreams
We left behind
I’ll be glad ’cause
I was blessed to get
To have you in my life
When I look back
On these days
I’ll look and see your face
You were right there for me

In my dreams
I’ll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I’ll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you’ll be

Well you showed me
How it feels
To feel the sky
Within my reach
And I always
Will remember all
The strength you
Gave to me
Your love made me
Make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me

‘Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to thank you
Now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
For always

Boooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

Boudin ran out of bread bowls the other day hopefully they’ll have some today! Went to California Pizza Kitchen instead, and it was deliiiicious . I had raspberry italian soda with creme, caesar salad (with parmesan shavings!), and this hawaiian pizza with pineapple and bbq chicken. Who knew bbq would go so well with pizza .

For those of you who know me on EAv, I made a new blog!

http://eav.frozensky.com/

Ok. I wanna talk about the time all my hamsters escaped one night while I was getting some zzzz. Yeah, that does not sound that interesting.. but did you know that I had 5 hamsters? Yes FIVE. Ok, I’m kidding. I have eight. My apartment is infested with little furry hamtaros.. which is okay you know (what, really?).. especially when they’re confined to their proper living areas (a.k.a. cages). BUT THAT NIGHT WAS DIFFERENT. That night, I became Erica Irwin, the hamster hunter. It started off by me waking up to a strange shuffling noise in the closet. I yawn and dismiss the noise, thinking something probably just fell down, like my stash of twinkies I hide in the closet. I pull the blankets in closer and go back to sleep. Five seconds later, I decide that twinkies don’t sound like a bad idea after all, so I slump my fatt buttocks off the bed to go grab some. I slide open the closet door and start reaching around for my twinkies. Then I hear a small ripping noise coming from outside the bedroom, which I ignore because twinkies are obviously more important right now. My hand touches something squishy, and I think Aha!! So I grab it, but it jumps out of my hand. I am bewildered. Why is my twinkie running away from me? Then I realize how stupid that sounds (mind you, I was still half asleep then) and I hop to my feet really fast. My apartment is being infested by mice and they’re going to eat my twinkies! Shiitake. Then I run out of my room, because I have an intense fear of rodents. Yes, rodents. FYI, hamsters aren’t rodents, they’re little people. I turn on all the lights, stand up on my couch, and peer around the room with eagle eyes. My eyes widen at the scene in front of me: something white and fluffy nibbling and scratching on the carpet, something brown running around in circles, and something black sitting on top of my Apple Airport. I snort raucously and cross my arms. I am in for a loooooong night. Then I see something black zoom out of my bedroom and I scowl.

I spent 4 fraking hours that night trying to catch all my hamsters and return them to their cages. Although it probably would have taken less if I wasn’t eating twinkies at the same time. Heehee. I still haven’t figured out how all of them escaped that night. They probably do this every night and I just don’t know it.

I posted this on my other blog, but no one really looks at that so I’m reposting it here:

Updates on EA.com:
- Total days played: 10
- 129 shareholders
- 54.66 share price
- I was promoted to CEO on the “Psychology” index! (yesterday)
- Added a facebook fanpage
- Added a LinkedIn account
- 3 active blogs (including this one)
- e score: 31
- twitter score: 6
- facebook score: 25
- flickr score: 2
- youtube score: 11

I’ve also been trying to tweet more without annoying my followers lol (eww @ spam). I am still not sure what to think about this “game.” All I know is that it’s extremely addictive and I probably won’t stop soon. Where else can you be rewarded for tweeting/facebooking/youtubing/havingnolife?

http://empireavenue.com

Here’s a little shout out to all my favorite blogs on the internet:

The Food Pornographer
“I started The Food Pornographer website in August 2005. It started out as a personal blog that included photos of what I ate, but over time has evolved to a food blog. The Food Pornographer features posts about home cooking, junk food and takeaway, family feasts, bento lunches and much more, as well as restaurant reviews.”

Foodnatic Asian Guy
“This blog is intended to help you find interesting food that you may or may not have tried before.”

Lunch in a Box
“I’m Biggie, a work-at-home mom of a four-year-old in San Francisco, obsessed with cooking and building a faster, better packed lunch. I lived in Japan for nine years and am fluent in Japanese, but am into all cuisines. I noticed loads of time-saving packed lunch tips in my Japanese-language cooking magazines and bento cookbooks, so in February 2007 I started trying them out, tweaking them for a non-Japanese kitchen and world food, and documenting them here. My goal is tasty, attractive lunches with a minimum of morning prep.”

Camera Labs
“Camera Labs was launched in December 2005 as a source of unbiased digital camera and lens reviews. On this site you’ll find detailed reports and video tours of the latest digital photography products, along with workshops and features explaining how to make the most of them. Whether you’re upgrading your camera, considering a new lens, or joining the world of digital photography, Camera Labs is here to help you make the right choice.”

Frozen Flower
“Welcome, dear visitor, to Frozen Flower. You’ve stumbled across the creative home of Pange, an ordinary girl who likes to create things in her spare time. She wants to share all that can with you (yes, you). She is a girl, twenty-three years of age. She is living the life of a university student. She wants to create meaning through words and images. She is happy and optimistic. She wants to experience life and love (she searched and she found). She is nothing, something, or everything.”

Super Cute Kawaii
“Super Cute Kawaii is a daily blog of handmade cuteness and Japanese kawaii. Discovering there was no-one covering their favourite cute handmade things as well as the crazy and cute Japanese kawaii we love, Marceline and Claire decided to start one themselves!”

There’s much much more.. I’ll continue to add to this list on my free time.

Another random poem I wrote:

the balancer of death
of emotions, fears and anxiety
of conditions, physical and mental
of dreams, desire and hopes
of conflicts, loud and quiet
of confusion, control or freewill?
all to be zapped into
nonexistence
yet life persists

Here is a poem I wrote several months ago when I was in a contemplative mood:

gloom of clouds
sweeps a grey sky
whine of winds
blows away matter
silver of raindrops
extinguishes on concrete
to see, smell, feel
the Reason for our perceptions -
an interference of thought
sweeps away beauty
conflict of the Reasonable mind
destroys inherent spirit
and distorts Nature
wish for blindness
only a fool would